Isn't this fun?

I have the house to myself and mulled wine (because its freezing) and brownies and nice things and Fable 2. Half my brain is missing and luckily its mostly the bad parts. Unfortunately some intelligence went with it, but I'm sure they'll come crawling back soon enough. I'm actually somewhat calm, which is the rarest and coolest of things. :)

Mehblahwhy?

I hate everyone...

I don't know why. Actually I do. I hate everyone because they don't hate me. They should hate me.

Thoughts

1. I wish I was unconscious right now.
2. That is all.

Please will my brain shut up?

We Won

Yeah, Vaults quiz night, we won. Against one other team. We got £20 between 7 of us, so not a living wage, but still. WE WON!!!

Sorry, I'm not gloating, I just haven't been on the winning team for a long time.

I like painting. I like smoking. I like eyeliner. I like dope and I like drinking, I like writing and I like reading.

I like staying up late and walking in the dark. I like missions and I like sketching in charcoal. I like listening to music and singing when no one can hear me. I like sleeping and lying in bed all day.

I like you. And I like to see myself reflected in your eyes. It's the only place I exist.

Detox

Yes. I'm quitting while I'm ahead. My body is starting to hate me, and I can't convince myself that I'm invincible forever. I used to be invincible...
Now I'm in pain and have the shakes. Last night is the last time I'm ever doing that. Even though it's fun (in a really twisted way), I'm not sure how much more my body or mind can take. Probably loads more, but let us not push the limits too far.

No more poison.

Morning After

Another waking up to feeling like death. I have the shakes, I'm severely dehydrated, and Hell, I think I've got serotonin syndrome (look it up on Wikipedia). And here's another day.

I wants my Muz.